I don't know. [ and he's being truthful. he doesn't know if it feels good to let it all out. ] I don't want to make things complicated because I decided to feel something. Things are... good. [ could they be better, yes, absolutely... but he'd rather have something than nothing. ] I don't know if I can tell him.
I don't think anyone decides to feel something. They just do. And it seems to me things are already complicated for you.
[ Living vicariously through a self-published comic is... definitely not the usual way of coping with one's unrequited feelings. ]
Sure, if you don't say anything, then you don't risk things changing for the worse, but they can't change for the better either. If you found out years from now you could have been something more but never were because you were too paralyzed to move, don't you think you'd regret it? Besides. He's an idiot if he doesn't see what a catch you are.
[ And if she knows Alhaitham to be anything, he is not an idiot. ]
I'm sure I would have regrets. [ his stance relaxes and he unfolds his arms. he doesn't remain on the couch though, and instead gets up to pace around the room. he appreciates her trying to make him feel better, but he's well aware of the strain he's put on their relationship. alhaitham takes care of... most things, but kaveh has been doing his best to help around the house to make up for the lack of a steady income. his job is difficult, because he has to constantly put himself out there, and it's on his clients whether or not they choose to hire him. he takes his head in hand, sighing. ]
Have you ever been in a situation like this? You seem to know a lot about it.
I can understand that. [ since it's how he feels. ] I'm glad that he said something and that you're both on the road to happiness. For Alhaitham and I... it's just a little different, [ he averts his eyes. ] because we had a falling out some time ago. We reconciled [ a bit. ] and I'm worried that overstepping an invisible boundary may put us back in that spot and I... I don't want that. They say you never know what you have until it's gone, and they're right, I don't want to lose this again.
I can understand being scared. You both have very different personalities and desires. So it makes sense you might have had a falling out--and that even now things feel precarious.
But... I think that you should give him a little more credit. Alhaitham isn't the kind of person to let irrational emotions keep him from moving past a disagreement. And for all that he's not necessarily good at showing it--it's clear he still cares. If he didn't, he wouldn't have taken you back in after your disagreement, right? I think in his own way, Alhaitham wants to move past it to better things, too.
I know he still cares... but people have their limits, and we already hit them once, explosively. It could happen again. [ of course he knows the both of them have grown since then, but that hasn't stopped him from worrying. ] I do think that we understand each other better than most, and... you may be right. [ about his wanting to move past it. ] I still have plenty to think about, but... thank you, Traveler.
I'm glad you're at least thinking about it. If there's something I can do to help things, let me know. I'd like for you both to be happy. And--in the unlikely event that something ever happens and you two get into a fight again such that you can't go home there--you can always come crash where I live.
[ that means more than she may realize. ] Thank you, Traveler. I hope it won’t ever come to that, but it’s nice to have a safety net. If there’s ever anything I can do for you, please don’t hesitate to ask.
No no, but I do need to think up that character… How about you’re a mutual friend, watching the chaos unfold as you try not to regularly facepalm at their complete ineptitude when it comes to their own relationship?
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[ Living vicariously through a self-published comic is... definitely not the usual way of coping with one's unrequited feelings. ]
Sure, if you don't say anything, then you don't risk things changing for the worse, but they can't change for the better either. If you found out years from now you could have been something more but never were because you were too paralyzed to move, don't you think you'd regret it? Besides. He's an idiot if he doesn't see what a catch you are.
[ And if she knows Alhaitham to be anything, he is not an idiot. ]
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I'm sure I would have regrets. [ his stance relaxes and he unfolds his arms. he doesn't remain on the couch though, and instead gets up to pace around the room. he appreciates her trying to make him feel better, but he's well aware of the strain he's put on their relationship. alhaitham takes care of... most things, but kaveh has been doing his best to help around the house to make up for the lack of a steady income. his job is difficult, because he has to constantly put himself out there, and it's on his clients whether or not they choose to hire him. he takes his head in hand, sighing. ]
Have you ever been in a situation like this? You seem to know a lot about it.
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[ Unlikely, she sort of already knew when she had memories. But. She didn't have them at the time. ]
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But... I think that you should give him a little more credit. Alhaitham isn't the kind of person to let irrational emotions keep him from moving past a disagreement. And for all that he's not necessarily good at showing it--it's clear he still cares. If he didn't, he wouldn't have taken you back in after your disagreement, right? I think in his own way, Alhaitham wants to move past it to better things, too.
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You're already doing stuff for me, right? We're making a whole book together.
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